Tuesday, April 14, 2015

32 weeks!

How Far Along:  32 weeks!  Very excited about this.  Now if we can just make it 2 more weeks I'll be even more excited!

Maternity Clothes: I have about 2 things that fit and I wear them to the doctor.  Other than that I am in pajama pants/leggings and Lonnie's shirts...which are getting a bit too short in the front.  

Sleep: oh sleep.  Hit or miss really.  The last few nights I have slept in 15-20 minute increments which is pretty rough.  I wake up with either a painful contraction, back pain or hip pain that feels like my leg is falling off.  But when I am asleep I sleep hard!  Ha!  

Best Moment of the Week:  My appointment last Monday.  Tiny backstory since I haven't blogged about it.  When I went for my 30 week appointment I was "1/2 of a centimeter" dilated.  Since there had been a change in my cervix and I was still contracting quite a bit he started me taking the procardia 3 times a day (every 8 hours).  I contracted like crazy for the next 2 days coming very close to going to the hospital.  When I went back for my 31 week appointment I was really nervous that my cervix would have changed because the contractions seemed to have picked up.  And to be honest they can be pretty painful sometimes.  But I was only at a 1 which was minimal change so I was super happy about that.  I had a dream that I was like 5 cm and had to be taken to Little Rock so I nearly cried when he said I was a 1.  Whew.  

We also got an ultrasound to check the growth of the babes and they looked great.  Still both measuring big which is great and each a little over 4 pounds.  Baby sister has now joined her brother and flipped breech.  So that explains why I can't eat or breathe much..I have two large heads under my ribcage.  If brother flips head down then we can go for a vaginal delivery.  If he does not then it will be c-section.  Not worrying myself over this at the moment.  

**went to the dr agin today and there has been no change!  So we are hanging in there.  Super pumped about this**

Movement Yes.  I do feel like it has slowed a little but then right when I think that they start squirming around in there.  Lots of little twist and turns instead of the big head butts.  

Symptoms Nothing really new I guess.  Just contractions all the live long day.  

What I Miss:  I do miss being able to move my body.  Once I get comfortable then I am not moving until I absolutely have to.  

Food Cravings/Aversions:  I only really want cold food.  Probably has something to do with the reflux.  

What I'm Looking Forward to:  Well snuggling these sweet babes soon!  And putting the finishing touches on their room...although some of that may not happen until after they are here since I can't really go downstairs.      

Milestones:   I am just so happy to be at 32 weeks.  Each day and week from here on out just means the babies will have gained more weight.  My ideal goal is 36 weeks but I will be so happy for 34 weeks.  We can do this!  

Sanity:  I thought I would add this little section.  My sanity is holding up.  I am on my 4th week of bed rest.  I know this is what I have to do and I am trying not to complain.  But it does get a little boring laying on the couch all day and night.  It is hard to let all these people come in and out of my house daily to help take care of Blakely.  I am so thankful I have the help but I really miss being able to do these things myself.  I don't consider myself a control freak but after the last couple of weeks I realize that I really do like being in control of certain things!!!!  I know I will look back on this time and it will seem like it was so short.  I am trying to focus on that and just get through each day.  I miss playing with my girl.  I miss getting out of the house.  We are almost there.  I can do this.  Sometimes I have to give myself a pep talk.  ;)  

Friday, April 3, 2015

Let it go

So, yeah, when you are on bed rest and can only get up to pee or take a quick shower you REALLY have to let a few things go.  We are two weeks into this and I think I am doing good not letting little things stress me out anymore (dirty dishes left on the coffee table !*&&^%$&!$$%).  

The first week was difficult and I probably drove Lonnie crazy telling him what to do.  Pick that up, take this in there, no Blakely can not wear that, you have to clean before Juanet comes to clean!  He looked at me like I was crazy.  But now I just forget about all of that.  We can live in a crazy house for a while.  We have people coming to help us clean (Juanet and Brenda) so in between it's fiiiiiiine if you can't see the floor or the kitchen counter and the kitchen sink is full of dirty dishes piled up like a mountain.  Fiiiiine.  Totally fine.

I have also had to just deal with Blakely picking out her own clothes.  She is MAJOR into clothes and wants to change her outfit at least 3 times a day and no on else can have a say in her choices.  She and I had a deal where I got to pick out her clothes unless she was going to Jenni's or GranDi's house.  That was working well.  But now with Lonnie or a grandparent getting her dressed in the morning they just let her decide.  It's crazy what she walks upstairs wearing some days.  It drove me nuts at first buuuuuuut....letting it go.  

I also hate not being in control of what Blakely eats.  Generally she eats well but she has been getting a LOT more treats.  I haven't been going to the store and I am so thankful to have had people go for me.  So I can't complain too much when they come home with gummy treats and jello and sugary cereal.  Alllll temporary....letting it go.

And then there is me.  Do you have any idea when the last time I shaved my legs was?  Yeah, me neither.  I've worn the same leggings for 2 weeks only taking them off twice to wash them.  My feet and toes are totally nasty.  I was planning on getting a pedicure on my birthday but I wasn't feeling well.  TOTALLY REGRETTING THAT.  It is sandal weather now and I refuse to wear actual shoes now because I can't bend down to tie them...slipping on sandals sounds so much easier.  I got Lonnie to clip my toenails and paint them.  Love that man.  

So I really have nothing to complain about because I have all these awesome people taking care of me, my husband and my daughter.  But I would be LYING to your face if I said that it wasn't hard to relinquish some of the control I have over my own household.  It is getting a little easier because I realize that I have no other choice.  My job right now is to rest, relax and keep these babies growing inside of me.  So I am focusing on that because that is the most important thing.  

Monday, March 30, 2015

Garage Sale

I am happy to say that we finally were able to have the garage sale.  So my house is cleaned out and that just makes my nesting heart oh so happy.  It all worked out pretty well even though I went on bed rest the week before we had it scheduled.  

Jennifer, the organizer that I hired, and I had already gone through every single room in the house and culled out garage sale stuff and priced it.  She then also organized what was to be kept in each room.  The week before the garage sale was spent (me on the couch) with her bringing all the stuff up to the garage and getting it ready to be put out.  We priced a few last minute things and Sarah came over and made the signs and organized the baby clothes to be sold.  Blakely helped with that.

I put an ad in the paper and Jennifer put the signs out the night before.  I have never done a garage sale and I really only did it because I thought it was the best way to get rid of some of my stuff.  And I never would have done it without her help.  We had so much stuff.  And not junky stuff either!  Lots of home decor items, Christmas decor, kitchen items, baby girl clothes, luggage, bags/purses, a ton of wine and martini glasses sold as sets and some random tools, puzzles, cookbooks and craft supplies.  I advertised that it started at 8 knowing people would show up early....and they did...about 7 cars by 715.  I was so surprised at how many people we had.  Literally 6-10 people here all the time for almost 4 hours.  Jennifer and Lonnie worked it while my mother in law watched Blakely and I "bed rested".  

Could not have done it without her!  

We sold almost everything.  We may have one truckload of stuff to haul off...mainly tv's...hard to even give those away!  And y'all, we made $850!  I was so shocked!  I would have been happy with anything because, honestly, I paid Jennifer to do a lot of the work so it's not like I was planning on coming out on top.  BUT I TOTALLY DID.  The sale paid for what I had paid to Jennifer plus she did other things besides just garage sale stuff.  Total freaking win.  

I am so happy to have that over with.  Now my garage is cleaned out but more importantly the new playroom is cleaned out!  Once we sell the actual bar that was in there we can really turn it into a playroom.  That will be slow going because I can't do much but I have a bare minimum that I require before the babes get here and I know we can at least get that done.  Move the couch down there, get a tv and a large rug and then move the majority of Blakely's large toys from the living room to there.  So that's not asking much, right?  

Zeeee house is coming right along and just in time!  Whoop!  

30 weeks

How Far Along:  30 weeks!  So happy to have a 3 in front of those numbers.  

Maternity Clothes Since I'm on bed rest I live in leggings and Lonnie's shirts.  Don't see that changing any time soon.  Although I did put on one of my shirts that still fits for the garage sale this weekend...and so I could take this picture!  ha!  

Weight Gain:  I had lost weight last week.  I wasn't surprised because I had been so nauseous.  The last few days I seem to have my appetite back so that is good!  Give me all the sour patch kids ever.  

Sleep: Meh.  It comes and goes.  The couple of days after I got the steroid shots sleep was horrible of course.  Now it's okay.  I sleep hard but just wake up a million times to adjust.  Hip pain is the culprit.  

Best Moment of the Week: Just not going into labor is a great moment.  
Movement The movement has gone to a whole new level.  I mean babies everywhere.  Blakely has felt them a couple of times. It is pretty much constant motion of some sort.  Occasionally I feel like one of them is trying to escape through my belly button.  Speaking of belly button, it is pretty flat.  It always stayed an innie with Blakely but this pregnancy may make it stick on out.  ;)

Symptoms  all about the same as my last update.  reflux is worse mainly because of all the laying down.  I am pretty uncomfortable but I really don't care.  As long as the babies keep growing and stay in there I will take all the pain and discomfort.  

What I Miss:  playing with Blakely.  :(  She is being a trooper but I know she misses me getting down on the floor and playing with her.  

Food Cravings/Aversions:  I really want a huge salad.  I know that's random  but I haven't had one in a while because lettuce is about the absolute worst thing for indigestion.  

Gender: boy and girl.  They MAY have names.  We are giving them a test drive and seeing how they work ;)

What I'm Looking Forward to the new crib is being delivered this week and Blakely's furniture is as well!  Fun!  

Weekly Wisdom: RELAX

Milestones:   getting to 30 weeks.  This means we have MAX 8 weeks left and more than likely 6-7 at the most.  This is getting crazy close.  

Sunday, March 29, 2015


I'll start this off by saying that everything is okay.  It has been a stressful 2 weeks and it still is pretty stressful around here but we are making it.  One day at a time.  

Thursday, March 19.  

I had not been feeling right all week.  Nothing major just a little lightheaded and no appetite (which was quite the change!).  I woke up from a nap around 2:30 and I had been dreaming that I was taking a nap and having contractions.  After being awake for a few minutes I realized that I was actually having contractions.  Great.  I came upstairs and tried to get comfortable, drank a ton of water, etc.  Blakely was here with Brenda.  I started timing them at about 3:30...every 7 minutes.  I mentioned it to Brenda and she offered to stay until Lonnie got home or my mom got here.  I wasn't too worried yet.  At 4:30 they were about every 4 minutes.  Started worrying.  My mom left work and came here and Lonnie got home about 5:15.  Still contracting regularly so I called my doctor and up I went to the hospital.  Lonnie stayed with B and my mom came with me.  

They checked my urine and I was dehydrated.  Which is crazy for the amount of water I drink.  I also had ketones in my urine which can make you feel lightheaded, etc.  I had a fever as well,  wth?  So they hooked me up to the IV, monitored the babes and gave me terbutaline for the contractions, which were now every 2 minutes.  That made them stop thankfully but I had to stay until I got all the fluid.  Cervix still closed....hallelujah.  Fetal fibronectin was negative....basically that means the chance of going into labor in the next 2 weeks is very low.  Got home after midnight.  They told me to be on bed rest until my appointment on Monday.  

I had contractions on and off the rest of the weekend but nothing worrisome or regular.  I laid down and did not do a single thing.  

Monday, March 23.

I had my appointment at 1015.  I had to get Blakely ready to go with Juanet and then get myself ready.  By the time I was ready to leave for the doctor I was uncomfortable and worn out.  Basically he said that I am obviously prone to contracting early and I probably will from here on out.  That is okay we just need to worry when they get regular.  He switched me to weekly appointments.  They also gave me a steroid shot to mature the babies lungs in case I do deliver early.  Then we talked about an at-home medicine I can take...procardia.  Basically when/if the contractions get going regularly I need to take one.  If they haven't backed off in 30 min. to an hour then I take another one.  If that doesn't slow them then I need to go to labor and delivery.  Cervix was still closed and the babies looked fine.  Also, bed rest from here on out....or at least until 34 weeks which is our goal at the moment.  I was so ready to go home and lay down.  

Monday afternoon/early evening I started contracting AGAIN.  Seriously?  Glad I got that prescription filled.  I ended up taking a procardia at about 7pm.  The contractions went from every 4 minutes to every 7.  Good but not good enough for me!  I took another one about an hour later and they stopped.  I tried to go to sleep but I was hopped up on steroids so it was a very long night.  

Tuesday, March 24. 

I woke up feeling very comfortable thank goodness.  I seriously didn't want to move.  I felt like all the moving and doing Monday nearly sent me into labor so I was happy to stay in  bed.  But I had to go back to the doctor at 11 to get the second dose of steroids for the babies lungs.  My aunt Jenni was here watching B and waiting on me.  We went to the doctor and came right back home to the bed.  I was feeling good...all day.

Midnight I wake up with really painful contractions.  Up to this point they had never been painful.  I mean I could feel them but I wouldn't say there was pain.  These were PAINFUL.  I had a few about 3 minutes apart and realized I couldn't get out of the bed.  I had to call Lonnie to help me (because I was afraid I was going to pee the bed) and he did and we timed them for a bit then I took a procardia.  I took another one 30 minutes later because the first one didn't help.  The meds made them less painful but they were still every 3-4 minutes.  By this point it was 3 am and I was in tears.  Lonnie was back asleep and I really thought we were going to have to go to the hospital.  But at some point I fell back asleep.  I woke up 2 hours later and was fine.  GAH.  So stressful.  I laid around all day Tuesday and did nothing.  I basically only got up to pee and then back to the couch or the bed. 

Since then things have been stable.  I still have contractions here and there (1-2 an hour) but nothing to really be worried about.  I feel like bed rest is helping that situation.  Although bed rest is pretty difficult!  I just want my uterus to RELAX and let these babes keep growing.  Right now I am taking it one day at a time.  Every day the babes stay in there is good.  Since my cervix is still closed I am not overly concerned that they could come any minute.  Although I go back and forth on this.  Trying not to panic and trying to stay calm!  I go back to the doctor on Wednesday and hoping everything remains stable!

Friday, March 27, 2015

28 weekers with the twinkers

So I typed all this out a good 2 weeks ago but then things got hectic and I never posted.  So much has happened recently but I want to post this and then I'll give an update on where we are now!  

How Far Along:  28 weeks!  This is another one of those little milestones I have had in my head so I am happy to be here.  

Maternity Clothes Yes.  I have graduated into Lonnie's t-shirts if I am just at the house.  Pretty much don't want to get into anything else.  

Sleep: Ehhhh.  Not very good.  I just wake up a lot and then can't get back to sleep.  Not necessarily because I am uncomfortable, which I am, but just because I am awake! Sleep great during the day if I get a chance though!  

Best Moment of the Week:  There have been lots of moments.  Lonnie was off this last week so we were able to get quite a bit done around the house.  The very last room to organize is the laundry room...saved it for last because I hate it.  Other than that we have de-cluttered every thing else.  Now we are hoping to have the garage sale in 2 weeks so we can get all this stuff out of the house.  Each room still has a little bit left to do before I can say it is complete but we have made HUGE progress.  HUGE and it makes me so happy.  

We went to Babi.esR.us last week to try and decide on a stroller.  Of course they didn't have the ones I wanted to see out on display so I am just going to have to wing it.  I also wanted to lay eyes on a crib.  Long story with the crib but they don't make Blakely's anymore so I have to get something else.  Which wouldn't be that big of a deal except Blakely's has a very curved back and both cribs are sharing a wall so I felt like they curvy backs needed to match.  Then I needed to match the color.  I think I found one.  I won't really know unit lit gets here so fingers crossed!  

Lonnie also made me get a support belt thingy for my belly.  I haven't been able to stand up much without my tummy just being super tight and painful.  So I reluctantly got one.  Can you say game changer?  I mean so far it is really really helping me.  It helps my back as well.  I can sit up for longer periods of time without being in pain which helps my comfort level when I do actually need to lay down.  

I registered this week.  I am having a shower (sprinkle?) in about 3 weeks.  I wasn't sure about having one but the friends weren't taking no for an answer...and I don't have a single boy thing!  SO I just registered for a few things at a boutique here in town and at BRU for some nursing supplies, etc.  

I got my cloth diapers in the mail.  Why is that so fun?  I don't know but I was pretty excited when I opened them.  
Movement Yes...all the time.  Now that they are bigger I can tell which one it is that is moving most of the time.  Not always though.  

Symptoms:  pretty much the same with a few new ones.  The reflux has started like crazy.  I can't eat any where near bed time.  I definitely did not have it this bad with Blakely.  I only want to eat cold stuff and not a lot of anything because I feel so full to begin with.  I have gained about 4 pounds in the last month and that is about 25-27 total...I can't remember exactly.  

My skin.  Oh my poor skin.  Just a few days ago it started really hurting on my belly.  I felt like it was going to split open right down the middle.  I have been massaging it with multiple different types of oils and creams and lotions and potions.  That makes it feel better temporarily but then it is right back to the stinging pain.  So far I don't have any new stretch marks just the ones I got with B.  Those are massively stretched out and ticked off looking so I know it is only a matter of time before new ones pop up.  I don't care a single thing about getting new ones because I know it is inevitable but wow....the skin pain.  

What I Miss: I don't really miss much but I do look forward to a large glass of wine.

Genderboy and a girl.  We still don't have names!  I think baby sister has a name but we went back to the drawing board with baby brother's name.  And Blakely's hates the girl name so we will see how that plays out.  Every time we say it she says NO!  That is not her name but I think she is coming around.  

What I'm Looking Forward to  I love being pregnant and feeling these babes move so I don't want to wish the pregnancy away.  I know I may not (probably won't) get to do this again.  All that to say...I am really excited for these 9-10 weeks to pass and to get to hold these little miracles in my arms.  

Weekly Wisdom: relax and try to enjoy these last weeks 

Milestones:  28 weeks is huge.  Very happy to be here and now let's get to 32 and beyond!  

I went to the doctor last week and Lonnie got to come with me.  We had a growth ultrasound.  I was so happy to see the babes as it had been over a month!  They were both looking good.  The first thing she measured was baby boy's head.  It measured 31 weeks and 1 day.  I nearly panicked.  Because I was 27 weeks 1 day!  I was mainly worried that he would be much bigger than sister and that would be worrisome.  But no.  That was not the case.  Both babies were measuring 29 weeks and some days.  So they are both large.  About 2 1/2 pounds!  No wonder I feel so super pregnant.  And right now they are both transverse so maybe that has something to do with the extreme stretching of the skin pain?  I get another growth ultrasound at about 31 weeks.  

I passed my glucose test so I had O.reos in celebration.  We talked about different birth plans but it seems like a post of its own.  Cervix is still a rockstar.  I go back in 2 weeks (which is just one week now).