Work...

Ok...I have worked the past two days and I am worn out!  I am so thankful that I only work two days a week...but those two days are tough sometimes.  Some days the job is ok...others not so much.  Like today.  My job is not easy....although some people might think so.  I do ultrasounds for all the patients in the hospital and we do them in their room.  So, this means that I have to push a HUGE (it's like 12 years old and ridiculously heavy) machine all over the hospital all day long.  Then when I get to a patient room I have to rearrange their furniture (bed, multiple chairs, cots, bedside toilets, IV poles, lunch trays, bedside tables,ventilators, you get the point) to get the HUGE machine into the room so I can do the exam.  Then there is the actual exam...which I won't I won't even get into how hard this part can be...I'll just say that people aren't skinny :(


So needless to say, this is getting harder the bigger I get!  


Oh and I am on call as I type this.  Which means at any minute my phone could go off and I have to put my scrubs back on, drive back to the hospital and do all of the above again.  (by the way, no one tells you in school how HORRID ultrasound call is...not fair)


I hate to complain because there are times when I love my job....just not today.  It really makes me wonder if I am making the right decision to go back to work after baby girl is born.  My husband would like for me to stop working now...although he supports me if I want to keep working.  I know that I am so lucky to have the option of not working.  I think I am just scared to quit work and be a stay at home mom...what if I'm not good at it?  


Ugh...such a tough decision.  I guess I will just see how things go.  The plan right now is to go back after 3 months off.  Although, if I actually sleep well tonight and my phone rings at 3 am and I have to go in for some non-emergent "emergency", I very well may change my mind about that!