some details

I want to lay out a few of the details leading up to us finding out about the two babies.  (Still sounds SO CRAZY to say twins or two babies...)

Before our ultrasound at 6 weeks 3 days, Lonnie and I took a peek at 5 weeks 3 days.  We were only expecting to see a gestational sac with a yolk sac.  That is what I was hoping for.  We were able to see 2 gestational sacs and one had a great yolk sac and we could even see the embryo and a heartbeat.  That was wonderful and very surprising to see the heart motion that early.  The other sac was odd shaped and it was really hard to see a yolk sac...like weren't sure if we were seeing it or not.  We weren't really sure what to think about this.  I knew it was still so very early and the embryos could have implanted at different times so could be growing at a different pace.  But I also hoped to see a circular sac and a good yolk sac.  So we were left kind of in limbo. 

To be honest, I still held out hope that the second one was just a few days behind.  I just had a feeling.  Lonnie on the other hand really thought that at our next ultrasound we would find out for sure that the second one had stopped growing.  I think he was just preparing himself and me for the news. It was a really weird feeling for a few days.  I mean we were so pumped that we saw a heartbeat in the first sac.  So then it was odd to be sad about the second one.  Should we be sad?  But we are happy about the first one.  Just a strange thing to be honest.  

We didn't tell anyone except my mom and Lonnie's mom (and my friend Casey who scanned me knew as well).  It was just hard to explain to people and I wanted a confirmed answer before telling my close friends.  

One week later at 6w3d I went to Li.ttle Ro.ck to get my first official ultrasound...by myself.  I was nervous but very excited as well.  As soon as Dr. B started scanning I was looking at the second sac.  I could tell it was bigger which was awesome.  Then Dr. B said there are two heartbeats!  I was so caught off guard that I started crying.  I had prepared myself so much for the second one to have stopped growing so I was a little surprised.  Wonderfully surprised!  Baby A measured 6 weeks 4 days and Baby B measured 6 weeks 2 days.  

They all congratulated me.  They are so sweet at this clinic.  I know I have had my issues there but they are good people and really really really wanted to see me get pregnant.  I have been going there for 6 years and I feel indebted to them for giving me my sweet Blakely.  I was holding in a really big ugly cry while they drew my blood (which I proceeded to let out the second I stepped on the elevated on my way out of the building).   A couple of the other girls came up and congratulated me.  I was still feeling very numb and wanted to talk to Lonnie so bad.  

I called him as soon as I got in the car but he was in surgery so I had to wait an hour for him to call me back.  So long.  Finally he called and the convo went a little bit like this.  

Lonnie:  Hey babe.  You ok?

Me:  I'm fine.  There are two heartbeats in my uterus.  

Lonnie: ......

Me:  You there, babe?

Lonnie:  Okayyyyyyy......

Me:  You just taking it all in?  Panic attack?

Lonnie:  I'm okay.  It's okay.  

Me:  Can you believe it?  {I told him a few details here}  

Lonnie:  Okay.  Twins.  Wow.  

Me:  Lots of me telling him it's going to be okay, etc.  

He is a bit freaked out still.  We are both slowly becoming less numb to the idea of 2 babies.  Sure, we knew it was a possibility but it didn't seem likely.  Well, here we are pregnant with twins.  Awesome!

Most of the people who know I am pregnant now know that it is twins.  We are not publicly telling people (no FB, please!) yet because it is too early and I am uncomfortable with that.  Honestly it is a little uncomfortable this many people knowing.  But our situation this time has been different and I understand that.  So our family knows and close friends and you, the blog world!  Ha!  

I have another official ultrasound at 8 weeks 3 days.  I am still nervous as it is still very early.  I hope and pray that they both keep growing and everything continues to go smoothly!