Let it go

So, yeah, when you are on bed rest and can only get up to pee or take a quick shower you REALLY have to let a few things go.  We are two weeks into this and I think I am doing good not letting little things stress me out anymore (dirty dishes left on the coffee table !*&&^%$&!$$%).  

The first week was difficult and I probably drove Lonnie crazy telling him what to do.  Pick that up, take this in there, no Blakely can not wear that, you have to clean before Juanet comes to clean!  He looked at me like I was crazy.  But now I just forget about all of that.  We can live in a crazy house for a while.  We have people coming to help us clean (Juanet and Brenda) so in between it's fiiiiiiine if you can't see the floor or the kitchen counter and the kitchen sink is full of dirty dishes piled up like a mountain.  Fiiiiine.  Totally fine.

I have also had to just deal with Blakely picking out her own clothes.  She is MAJOR into clothes and wants to change her outfit at least 3 times a day and no on else can have a say in her choices.  She and I had a deal where I got to pick out her clothes unless she was going to Jenni's or GranDi's house.  That was working well.  But now with Lonnie or a grandparent getting her dressed in the morning they just let her decide.  It's crazy what she walks upstairs wearing some days.  It drove me nuts at first buuuuuuut....letting it go.  

I also hate not being in control of what Blakely eats.  Generally she eats well but she has been getting a LOT more treats.  I haven't been going to the store and I am so thankful to have had people go for me.  So I can't complain too much when they come home with gummy treats and jello and sugary cereal.  Alllll temporary....letting it go.

And then there is me.  Do you have any idea when the last time I shaved my legs was?  Yeah, me neither.  I've worn the same leggings for 2 weeks only taking them off twice to wash them.  My feet and toes are totally nasty.  I was planning on getting a pedicure on my birthday but I wasn't feeling well.  TOTALLY REGRETTING THAT.  It is sandal weather now and I refuse to wear actual shoes now because I can't bend down to tie them...slipping on sandals sounds so much easier.  I got Lonnie to clip my toenails and paint them.  Love that man.  

So I really have nothing to complain about because I have all these awesome people taking care of me, my husband and my daughter.  But I would be LYING to your face if I said that it wasn't hard to relinquish some of the control I have over my own household.  It is getting a little easier because I realize that I have no other choice.  My job right now is to rest, relax and keep these babies growing inside of me.  So I am focusing on that because that is the most important thing.