Ready to go

I went back to the doctor today for lab and ultrasound.  My ovaries look great with many follicles.  I think this is the best they have looked...ever (Go ovaries!).  He measured a total of about 15 but I think that there were actually more...remember...I do ultrasound!  Let’s just hope a lot of those are mature.  My past two IVF’s they have retrieved 14 eggs each time with 8 mature on #1 and 7 mature on #2.  I am really hoping for 10 mature eggs.  I know that I shouldn’t hope because that has never worked out for me, but I just can’t help it.  If I can’t hope then what else is there?

So, I am to take Follistim 150 only (been taking 375) at 8pm tonight.  I haven’t done this before.  Usually I only do the Ovidrel.  He said that he was adding this for two reasons:

1. Studies are showing that it increases the success rate because the patients FSH (follicle stimulating hormone) does not drop down.  
2. It also helps those follicles that are borderline to mature.  This will help in my situation because we are just trying to get as many eggs as possible since we have to do ICSI.  

Also I am to take Ovidrel at midnight.  I go in Tuesday at 1030.  Wow....it is here.     

He talked to me about hyper-stimulation.  You can read a little about this here.  My estrogen is pretty high...higher than it has been before so I am for sure at risk for this.  He told me to just stay hydrated and take it easy and I should be ok.  Keeping my fingers crossed on that one.

I can’t believe it is here.  I am excited because I feel like this is going to work (3rd time is a charm right???).  I am nervous because this is our THIRD time...how many can we do this??  I am scared because I know that there is chance that this will not work and I am not sure what to do if it doesn’t.  

BUT

I am going to hope.

I am going to stay positive.

I am going to dream.  

Because that is all I can do.....it is out of my hands....