Postpartum

I am a little late on this post but I just wanted to document. I went for my 4 week postpartum visit a week ago.  Anyway, I mentioned the other day that I was kinda nervous about it.  


He looked at my incision/tear and said that it was healing perfectly.  It does take longer for them to heal in breastfeeding moms...something about having more progesterone than estrogen.  He gave me some estrogen cream to put on it every other night and that should help it to finish healing sooner.  I have to say, during week four I started to feel like it might actually heal.  But during week five I have had sort of a set back.  I don't know what the deal is but it just started getting more sensitive.  I had my husband look at it (awesome, I know, but he is a doctor so whatever...).  It is doing fine just still healing.  He did say there was some sort of small piece of prominent tissue and that is right where I was hurting.  Hopefully it will get better soon.  Sorry for the TMI...


Oh and good news.  I've talked to two people that had worse tears than I had and they went on to have more kids....this means they had sex.  That gives me hope ;)


Also, I didn't cry!  I was pretty proud of myself for that.  I don't know what it is but I was just getting so emotional when I thought about going back there for the last time (hopefully not last time, but last time for this pregnancy).  I also thought I would cry when I saw Dr. C but I didn't....I may have teared up when he hugged me but just a little ;)  I took him a gift from Lonnie and I and I wanted to take his nurse a gift and cookies for the office but I couldn't carry it all!  I am due for my yearly at the end of December so I decided I will do it then.  His nurse is pregnant and due in February so I am going to get her a gift for her little one.  


So now for the post partum body.  I gained a total of 32 pounds during my pregnancy and I have lost all but 6 pounds.  This is the heaviest I have ever been (not pregnant, of course).  I gained about 10 pounds during our 3 IVF cycles.  So I would ideally like to lose 16 more pounds.  I am actually pretty happy about how I look...with clothes on HA!  But it is all squishy feeling.  I really need to start doing some sit ups and hopefully it will get less soft.  It is weird when you don't use your abs for such a long time and then you try to use them.  I want to get back in to running ASAP but my body is just so not ready for that.  I have been taking walks with her in the stroller and I really enjoy it...but can I just say so out of shape!  As soon as I heal a little more I might try some jogging.  If I really got into I might eventually get a jogging stroller.  We will see..


So here is a pic of me two days after I had Blakely.

This is 12 days after

This was 25 days after

This is five weeks after

And for the sake of complete honesty...
Here is a close up of my tummy the morning of my induction

And here I am now with my shirt up in all my stretch marked glory.  I can't believe I am posting this but for some reason I feel the need...so here it is...I might regret it later :)
You see why I said I feel pretty good...with clothes on!  They do seem to be getting lighter but I'm not sure.  They are totally worth it though...

We went to our wine dinner last night and had a great time!  I did miss her but it was so nice to get dressed up and get out.  It is amazing how good it can make you feel when you have lived in pajamas and no make up for over a month.  I wore heels and drank wine for the first time in a LONG time.  It was also nice to tell people about our daughter!  We definitely showed everyone pictures of her..that was fun!  A little surreal....

And let me just say...Spanx and a great dress will do wonders for the squishiness!!!  Also, this is the first time in my entire life I had cleavage!  I wish we would have taken a closer picture of that!  


And just because she is so dang cute...

Happy Friday!!!