Stressed.

Well. 

There is a lot going in up in here. 

My poor Lonnie is in the hospital and has been since Sunday. He has meningitis. I mentioned that he was getting sick again and it was similar to the horrible he had in May. Well he started getting better last Thursday and Friday. So we thought everything was good. 

Well over the weekend he rapidly deteriorated. Saturday afternoon he mentioned that he had a headache. He laid down for a nap and when he woke up he had a fever again. Great. I could tell he was not feeling well. He took Tylenol for the pain and laid around all evening. Sunday morning he looked worse and his headache would not go away.  Then he started vomiting. Oh dear. We decided to take Blakely to my mom's house so he could have some quiet and try to rest. By the time I got back from taking her (about 30 minutes) he was much worse. I found him on the bathroom floor shivering and saying he needed to go to the ER. Cue freak out from me. 

Anyway, I took him. He has meningitis. Pretty sure it's viral. He's being treated with antibiotics in case it was partially treated (with the initial antibiotics) bacterial meningitis. They say it isn't contagious. I'm sure I would have it already if it was. He is pretty miserable and I am ready to see some improvement.  You pretty much just have to let the virus pass and manage the symptoms. He is on an antiviral in case this specific virus will respond to it.

They are testing his spinal fluid for a million different things to try and figure of what caused this.  They are trying to figure out if this and his illness in May are related. So far everything that has come back has been negative. A whole lot of waiting. 

Then there is the fact that I am supposed to leave for Denver on Saturday for an embryo transfer on Monday.  Yeah....

I don't know what we are going to do. We thought if he was getting better we would still go ahead with the transfer. But he is still in a lot of pain and is not eating because of the nausea.  He was actually worse yesterday. I am thinking we should cancel.  And that sucks really fucking bad.  We are so close but I want everything to be perfect.  I don't want to jeopardize the transfer in any way. What if he feels better, we go through with it and then while I am gone he gets worse?  I need to be very relaxed and non-stressed. Maybe this isn't the right time even though everything leading up to now has made it seem like it was. I don't know. I just want to make the right decision. 

Blogged this from my phone because I am at the hospital.  Phone blogging is pretty awful...