next steps.

***If you are coming to this post from the SUYL infertility link up, hi!  Please feel free to check out the "Our Journey" tab across the top to see a detailed infertility history.  In short, we tried for 3 years before getting pregnant on our 3rd IVF.  Our miracle daughter was born in 2011.  We have since been trying to add another child to our family.  One negative FET, one negative IVF and another completely messed up IVF later and we are still waiting and hoping!  Please leave a comment or email me if you have any questions!  southernprincesskelly {at} gmail {dot} com   ***


Alert.  Wordy infertility post coming at ya.  Feel free to skip if this isn't your jam.  

I figure I can't just wallow in not knowing what steps to take when it comes to trying for another baby.  I just gotta go for it and do something.  As many of you mentioned, I called and made an appointment with my clinic.  I sort of wanted to vom while talking to the nice lady.  She asked me if I was a new patient...HAHAHA!  No.  I explained that I wanted to meet with Dr. B to discuss the possibility of us doing another IVF and to also discuss the the possibility of y'all not screwing it up.  

I was straightforward with her (no curse words, I promise).  I mentioned a tiny bit about the screw up in July and she acted like she knew what I was talking about, maybe not specifics but she knew something.  I told her we were thinking about giving it one more shot and we wanted to have a lengthy discussion with the doctor about it.  Appointment scheduled for next Thursday.  

What do I want out of this appointment?  Well, basically I want to see how I feel going back there.  I am still obviously bitter and I want to know if I can trust them.  As of right now the answer to that is a big fat no.  This is a big deal and very important to us.  I want to be reassured that they think they can help us.  I have no idea how I will feel going back there.  I may want to run out the second my foot hits the waiting room.  We will see.  

I also want to know what Dr. B has to say about another IVF.  Would he do anything differently?  Is there anything we can do to help improve egg quality?  I am only 31!  Does he think it is worth a shot or do we need to move on?  (Donor eggs, Donor embryos, adoption, etc)  I want to know if he would have a plan and if we felt comfortable with that plan.  

So we wait for that appointment.  

Right after I scheduled that I decided to look into a few clinics that I have heard great things about either from blogs, blog friends, or the internets in general.  I found one that seemed like a good fit.  The more I looked at them and their doctors the better I felt.  On a whim I clicked the link that said schedule a phone consult.  I figured it couldn't hurt to see what my doctor had to say and then have a phone conversation with another doctor and see what he/she had to say.  

After filling out a boatload of information (all very easy by the way, their site and service has been marvelous) we scheduled our phone consult for the end of January (after our consult with Dr. B).  Once this was scheduled I was sent a list of different steps that needed to be taken before that consult.  I got to work on it immediately.  Since we had to schedule the phone consult for a time when Lonnie was working (there was nothing else available and his schedule is very inflexible), I asked if I could be put on the cancellation list and if anything came up sooner could they give me a call.  

Well they called me 2 days ago and said they had a cancellation for yesterday evening.  Lonnie would be home.  My mom would be off work to watch B.  I'll take it.  

So yesterday evening we had a phone consult with the doctor who founded one of the leading fertility clinics in the nation.  Oh my word.  This all happened so fast.  I clicked the link on a whim during nap time like 4 days ago!  I mean I thought I was going to have weeks to prepare my questions and prepare my heart.  I'll save the details of that convo for my next post (i'm sure you can't wait...) but I will say that when we hung up the phone Lonnie and I looked at each other and smiled big.  We felt very encouraged and it's been a looooong time since we've felt that way.  That right there is worth a lot.