32 weeks!

How Far Along:  32 weeks!  Very excited about this.  Now if we can just make it 2 more weeks I'll be even more excited!

Maternity Clothes: I have about 2 things that fit and I wear them to the doctor.  Other than that I am in pajama pants/leggings and Lonnie's shirts...which are getting a bit too short in the front.  

Sleep: oh sleep.  Hit or miss really.  The last few nights I have slept in 15-20 minute increments which is pretty rough.  I wake up with either a painful contraction, back pain or hip pain that feels like my leg is falling off.  But when I am asleep I sleep hard!  Ha!  

Best Moment of the Week:  My appointment last Monday.  Tiny backstory since I haven't blogged about it.  When I went for my 30 week appointment I was "1/2 of a centimeter" dilated.  Since there had been a change in my cervix and I was still contracting quite a bit he started me taking the procardia 3 times a day (every 8 hours).  I contracted like crazy for the next 2 days coming very close to going to the hospital.  When I went back for my 31 week appointment I was really nervous that my cervix would have changed because the contractions seemed to have picked up.  And to be honest they can be pretty painful sometimes.  But I was only at a 1 which was minimal change so I was super happy about that.  I had a dream that I was like 5 cm and had to be taken to Little Rock so I nearly cried when he said I was a 1.  Whew.  

We also got an ultrasound to check the growth of the babes and they looked great.  Still both measuring big which is great and each a little over 4 pounds.  Baby sister has now joined her brother and flipped breech.  So that explains why I can't eat or breathe much..I have two large heads under my ribcage.  If brother flips head down then we can go for a vaginal delivery.  If he does not then it will be c-section.  Not worrying myself over this at the moment.  

**went to the dr agin today and there has been no change!  So we are hanging in there.  Super pumped about this**

Movement:  Yes.  I do feel like it has slowed a little but then right when I think that they start squirming around in there.  Lots of little twist and turns instead of the big head butts.  

Symptoms:  Nothing really new I guess.  Just contractions all the live long day.  

What I Miss:  I do miss being able to move my body.  Once I get comfortable then I am not moving until I absolutely have to.  

Food Cravings/Aversions:  I only really want cold food.  Probably has something to do with the reflux.  

What I'm Looking Forward to:  Well snuggling these sweet babes soon!  And putting the finishing touches on their room...although some of that may not happen until after they are here since I can't really go downstairs.      

Milestones:   I am just so happy to be at 32 weeks.  Each day and week from here on out just means the babies will have gained more weight.  My ideal goal is 36 weeks but I will be so happy for 34 weeks.  We can do this!  

Sanity:  I thought I would add this little section.  My sanity is holding up.  I am on my 4th week of bed rest.  I know this is what I have to do and I am trying not to complain.  But it does get a little boring laying on the couch all day and night.  It is hard to let all these people come in and out of my house daily to help take care of Blakely.  I am so thankful I have the help but I really miss being able to do these things myself.  I don't consider myself a control freak but after the last couple of weeks I realize that I really do like being in control of certain things!!!!  I know I will look back on this time and it will seem like it was so short.  I am trying to focus on that and just get through each day.  I miss playing with my girl.  I miss getting out of the house.  We are almost there.  I can do this.  Sometimes I have to give myself a pep talk.  ;)  

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Let it go

So, yeah, when you are on bed rest and can only get up to pee or take a quick shower you REALLY have to let a few things go.  We are two weeks into this and I think I am doing good not letting little things stress me out anymore (dirty dishes left on the coffee table !*&&^%$&!$$%).  

The first week was difficult and I probably drove Lonnie crazy telling him what to do.  Pick that up, take this in there, no Blakely can not wear that, you have to clean before Juanet comes to clean!  He looked at me like I was crazy.  But now I just forget about all of that.  We can live in a crazy house for a while.  We have people coming to help us clean (Juanet and Brenda) so in between it's fiiiiiiine if you can't see the floor or the kitchen counter and the kitchen sink is full of dirty dishes piled up like a mountain.  Fiiiiine.  Totally fine.

I have also had to just deal with Blakely picking out her own clothes.  She is MAJOR into clothes and wants to change her outfit at least 3 times a day and no on else can have a say in her choices.  She and I had a deal where I got to pick out her clothes unless she was going to Jenni's or GranDi's house.  That was working well.  But now with Lonnie or a grandparent getting her dressed in the morning they just let her decide.  It's crazy what she walks upstairs wearing some days.  It drove me nuts at first buuuuuuut....letting it go.  

I also hate not being in control of what Blakely eats.  Generally she eats well but she has been getting a LOT more treats.  I haven't been going to the store and I am so thankful to have had people go for me.  So I can't complain too much when they come home with gummy treats and jello and sugary cereal.  Alllll temporary....letting it go.

And then there is me.  Do you have any idea when the last time I shaved my legs was?  Yeah, me neither.  I've worn the same leggings for 2 weeks only taking them off twice to wash them.  My feet and toes are totally nasty.  I was planning on getting a pedicure on my birthday but I wasn't feeling well.  TOTALLY REGRETTING THAT.  It is sandal weather now and I refuse to wear actual shoes now because I can't bend down to tie them...slipping on sandals sounds so much easier.  I got Lonnie to clip my toenails and paint them.  Love that man.  

So I really have nothing to complain about because I have all these awesome people taking care of me, my husband and my daughter.  But I would be LYING to your face if I said that it wasn't hard to relinquish some of the control I have over my own household.  It is getting a little easier because I realize that I have no other choice.  My job right now is to rest, relax and keep these babies growing inside of me.  So I am focusing on that because that is the most important thing.