Happy Hour

So this is what you were thinking right??

Well that is not the happy hour I am talking about.  Although, I do thoroughly enjoy that one as well!  Some days it even comes way before 5...depends on the level of fussy ;)

This "happy hour" is completely different and it comes at a totally different time.  I call the first hour that Blakely is awake in the morning happy hour because that girl is so smiley and giggly that first hour.  I feed her first thing and then we talk, play, laugh, and kiss for a whole hour before we come upstairs and it is always my favorite part of the day.  I let her play in her crib for a little bit before I go in but then when she finally sees me she just lights up. It makes me feel so good!  

I have never been a morning person in my life but knowing I get to play with this sweet girl makes me look forward to 730 each morning.  Don't get me wrong, it is still hard to roll out of bed BUT once I see that pretty smile I forget how tired I am.    

This happy hour makes me feel like I am doing a good job as a mother.  I'm not sure why.  I guess because it is our special time together.  Even though we spend lots of time together during the day, this morning time is different.  It is just me and her, in our jammies, hanging out.  It's our little thing.  I like to think that she looks forward to happy hour as well :)

Sometimes we just snuggle...

Sometimes we giggle...

Sometimes we laugh...

Sometimes we smile at mommy's funny faces...

Sometimes we chew on our hands... (most of the time!)

Sometimes we just concentrate really hard on figuring it all out...

And on super awesome days we fall back to sleep!

Every night when I go to bed I can't wait to wake up and enjoy our happy hour together.  I love this sweet girl more than words can even express.....

It's everywhere....

Can you see what is wrong with this picture????

How about if you look a little closer...

Yes, my friends, that is shit.  And a whole lot of it.  

Blakely decided that going to Hobby Lobby with me and Aunt Sarah was the perfect time to release the load that she had been holding on to for days.  I could not agree with her any less....

The super fun part about this was that I didn't even know that it had happened.  We had been there over an hour when I noticed.  She was starting to get fussy so I picked up her giraffe and saw that.  Might have been why she was getting fussy?  I don't know...just a guess.  Poop turns to glue after an hour in case you were wondering.

So I took her to the car to change her and that is really when the shit hit the fan...errr the roof....

I had to change her with us both inside the car because it was FREEZING outside.  Normally I would have laid her down on the seat while I stood up outside but that was a no go.  So I was trying to squeeze her in between me and the car seat to do this.  Horrible idea I tell you...horrible.  

This pictures doesn't even really do it justice.  It was all the way up to her neck in the back.  When I took her shirt off she then had it in her hair.  There is only so much you can do with a travel case of wipes.  In the end she was still covered in shit, my back seat was covered in shit, and I was covered in shit as well.

But have no fear!  We continued our shopping trip!  We had to get some stuff done for the shower we are hosting next weekend.  Blakely was ok with that because she is starting to enjoy going places in her car seat.  She loves to look around.  Mommy was ok with that too because, ya know, being a mommy changes you.  I have no idea if Aunt Sarah was ok with it, it really didn't matter at that point ;)

Needless to say we all got a long hot soapy bath when we got home.   
I'm lying....Blakely got that and mommy got a quick and very cold wash cloth "bath"   :)

One Year Ago

One year ago today my sweet and precious Blakely Ann was created.  What a miracle!  I can't believe that was a year ago.  I wrote this post that day and this post the next day.  When I think back to how I was feeling that day I get very emotional.  I was so nervous because I wanted the egg retrieval to go well.  Everything up to that point had gone better than before so I was so hopeful yet so very scared.  If IVF #3 didn't work, I wasn't sure what we were going to do.  I tried not to think about that but it is hard not to think about your backup plan...your plan B.  We had been through so much in 2010....4 failed IUI's, 2 failed IVF's, and more heartbreak than I care to even think about.  I didn't know if we could keep going.....


Out of 19 eggs retrieved we got 6 embryos.  Four of those embryos made it to day three.  Two of those four were transferred in to me and the other two were frozen.  Out of the two that were transferred we got our Blakely!  WOW!  She was such a little fighter.  I remember from the day that I found out that I was pregnant until the day I gave birth to her I would tell her every night how proud of her that I was.  Proud that she kept growing, proud that she made it, proud that she was hanging on, proud to be her mommy.  I am still crazy proud of her.  I hope that one day she will be proud of me.  


So tonight I will snuggle my miracle a little tighter, hold her a little longer, kiss her until she falls asleep, and tell her over and over how happy she makes me...with blissful tears streaming down my face...

date night, bottles, and a milestone...

My honey took me on a date last night.  I can't even tell you how great it was!  I have decided we need to do this at least every other week.  We went out after we put Blakely to bed so I didn't have to worry about anyone giving her a bottle.  It was so nice to just hang out with Lonnie and talk and drink wine!  It had been so long and it made me feel so good.  Must do it again soon for mommy's sanity :)

Blakely did good while we were gone.  My aunt came over to watch her and to hang out with my mom.  She did wake up and cry about 45 minutes after I put her down.  Jenni rocked her and she eventually went back to sleep.  

She has been doing that lately...waking up screaming...what is the deal with that?  I don't think she is hungry although if I give her the boob she will eat, of course.  Also, the past two nights she woke up at 330 to eat.  I guess it is a growth spurt...

Last night when she woke up at 330 I was afraid to feed her.  I only had one cocktail and a glass of wine but still....I worry.  So I had Lonnie try to give her the bottle.  She took it like a champ and drank 4 ounces!!!!

She has been doing better with the bottle lately.  I can get her to take it with minimal screaming and Lonnie has given it to her the past three days with no screaming at all.  So now I just need other people to do it!  I think I am going to start having my mom give her one tomorrow.  She likes the tommee tippee the best so I am sticking with that.  That is good news because it has the least amount of parts to wash!  Yea!  I think it is just a matter of me being consistent with it.  I have to give her one every day.  

At first the only way she wouldn't scream at it was for me to speed walk in circles around my kitchen while bouncing her.  She would at least keep it in her mouth then, playing with it and chewing on it.  After about 30 minutes of this she would latch on.  I can't even tell you how sore my arm was after this.  I did this for about 5 days.  Then she started latching on sooner.  Then I would only have to speed walk until she latched on and then I could sit down.  Then after a few days of that I could get her to take it while she was in the bouncer.  I think the key is to keep her happy.  If she gets upset then there is no way she will take it.  You have to get/keep her calm to even have a chance.  We have made loads of progress and it is getting so much easier.  Thank goodness....

On another note, my girl is growing up so much!  She ROLLED OVER yesterday!!  I put her on her tummy for some tummy time and she just ducked her head and over she went.  Lonnie and I both saw it and we started clapping and yelling.  She was quite surprised but I'm not sure if it was from rolling over or from our reaction.  She did it two more times after that and we got it on video.  I can't believe she is growing up so much....I love it and it makes me sad all at the same time....

Totally random post but that's all I've got for a Sunday :)  Go Patriots!!!

Happy Birthday to my BLOG!

One year ago today, I started this blog.  What a fantastic idea that was!  I had been reading some infertility blogs for about a year before that and I thought starting my own would help me through my third IVF.  It was a place where I could vent, get support, and learn from others.  I had no idea how awesome starting this blog would be.  I have met so many great people that have helped me through the most life changing year of my life.


Over this one year my blog has changed a lot.  When I started it I was right in the middle of IVF number three so I blogged about that.  Once I got pregnant my blog changed into a pregnancy blog and I am so happy that I have all of my pregnancy stuff written down here.  Then I became a new mommy!  My blog is now about my little family.  I could have never imagined such a great year and I am so happy to have shared it with you guys!  


I really appreciate all of you who read and follow Candid Confessions of a Southern Princess.  You guys never cease to amaze me!  Y'all cheer me up when I'm down and encourage me when I'm doubting myself.  I really don't know what I would do without the support I have gotten through this blog.  I love being able to document my life here.  I wanted to be honest on this blog when I started it and not make my life always look like rainbows and butterflies because that would just be a huge lie!  I promise to keep on keepin' it real with you guys and I hope ya keep reading :)


By the way, I put a couple of tabs up at the top of my blog.  One is all about our journey to our sweet Blakely...what a long one it was!!  The other one is a list of all of my weekly Kelly Belly pregnancy updates.  I am working on a few more so be on the lookout for those.  


Love you all and Happy Friday!!!!!

TVT

I was going to do a separate post for most of these but I don't have time.  Life has been crazy hectic lately.  

TVT for you :)

• I can't seem to shake this cold.  I have had it for almost 2 weeks.  I feel better but I still have a terrible cough that keeps me up at night.  Good news is that Blakely has not gotten sick....fingers crossed.  

• We went to visit some of Lonnie's family last Friday.  They live about 2 hours away and had not met Blakely yet.  We had a great time and B was sooooooo good.  She wasn't fussy at all and pretty much showed off the whole time.  She slept the whole way there and the way back....great!

• Saturday we had a surprise 30th birthday party for my bestie Sarah.  I think she was actually surprised and we had a great time.  I didn't get to stay very long because I had to come home and feed the baby (who was, of course, refusing a bottle).  

Birthday girl!

 decorations...

cake

centerpieces that I made...thank you Pinterest!

all of the girls!

• My 30th birthday is two months away....EEEEK!!!!

• I got my Erin Condren life planner last week....I am so excited!!!  

• My mom came home from the hospital Tuesday and she is staying with us for a while.  She has to be non weight bearing for 6-10 weeks, they aren't sure exactly how long.  I am happy to have my mom here as long as she needs to stay.  She can't get around very well but a physical therapist is coming a couple of times a week to help teach her how to get around easier.  She is actually doing a lot better than I thought she would be doing.  Since she can't put any weight on it, she kind of has to hop on her good leg but she can't go very far doing this.  She probably hasn't hopped in 20 years!  She just makes it to the bathroom and then back to the bed.  Then we come to the living room and sit in the recliner for a bit.  She is in pain most of the time so we are trying to keep that under control.  I think once the pain gets better she will start to be able to do more.  I really hope this recovery goes smooth for her because I know she hates having to depend on me for everything.  I really don't mind and I would take care of her forever!  She thinks that she is being a burdon but we really like having her here.  Even though she can't take care of Blakely, she can play with her on the bed while I get some things done.  So helpful!

• I broke my toe on Saturday.  It feels awesome.  I slammed it into Blakely's swing.  It hurt like a mother but I was too scared to look down at it.  I thought I might faint.  I can't even imagine how my mom felt when she fell and shattered and dislocated her ankle...I am such a weenie!

• Mom had started Weight.Watchers before she fell so I have been inspired to help her to lose weight (and us too).  Bad news for her is that I control all the things that she gets to eat since she can't get up ;)  I didn't know anything about WW before now but I have been researching for the past few days.  As far as cooking healthy meals goes, it seems like this will be pretty easy...Pinterest helps ;)  And, hey, if it will help me lose those 10 IVF pounds I won't complain!  

• Since everything has been so crazy, Blakely has gotten COMPLETELY off schedule.  The other night she just pretty much wouldn't go to sleep.  Her naps were off, her feedings were off, just everything was off.  She has also started waking up 45 minutes to an hour after I put her down for the night.  She just cries and cries.  I thought she would just cry for a few minutes and go back to sleep but not so much.  I rocked her back to sleep and the second I put her down she would cry.  Lonnie would do the same thing.  The other night I was pretty desperate and gave her the boob like 4 times in just over an hour.  Usually that is the magic fix  boob=sleepy baby.  She would fall asleep but then cry the second her butt hit the crib.  My nipples haven't been that raw and sore since the first week of breast feeding!  Starting today we are getting back on schedule and I am going to be a strict momma!!!

• Speaking of Blakely, she has been packing some serious power behind her poops recently.  I mean wow!  We've had quite a few blowouts in the past few days....

• The bottle situation is getting better.  Although she will only take a little and only from me or Lonnie.  Pretty sure that doesn't help us very much....

check out that latch!  I had her tricked....she thought she was sucking on Sophie the Giraffe the whole time :)

• Does anyone else think Sophie the Giraffe is really just a dog toy???  My dogs FLIP OUT when this thing squeaks...

That's all I've got for today!  

Recipe Monday-Chicken Enchiladas

Today I am joining in on Recipe Monday with Heather at The Road Less Traveled.  I think this is a great idea as I really need some inspiration when it comes to cooking.  






These chicken enchiladas are pretty easy and taste great.  I love that they have the slivered almonds in them.  When I first made this I wasn't sure about the almonds but having a little crunch in the enchilada goes perfectly.  Here ya go!  I got this out of my Better Homes and Gardens cookbook and I'm making it tonight.  I'll post a picture them :)

1/4 cup slivered almonds

1/4 cups chopped onion

2 tablespoons butter

1 4oz can diced green chilies, drained

1 3oz package cream cheese, softened (I use fat free)

1 tablespoon milk

1/4 teaspoon ground cumin

2 cups chopped cooked chicken (I usually use the already cooked whole chicken)

12 7in flour tortillas or 6 inch corn tortillas (I go flour here)

1 10 3/4 oz can cream of chicken or cream of mushroom soup (I use reduced sodium)

1 8oz carton dairy sour cream (I use light)

1 cup milk

3/4 cup shredded monterey jack cheese

2 tablespoons slivered almonds

In a medium skillet cook the 1/4 cup almonds and the onion in hot butter over medium heat until onion is tender.  Remove from skillet and from heat.  Stir in 1 tablespoon green chilies and reserve the remaining chilies

In a medium bowl combine cream cheese, 1 tablespoon milk, and cumin.  Add nut mixture and chicken.  Stir. Spoon about 3 tablespoons of the chicken mixture onto each tortilla near one edge and roll up.  Place filled tortillas, seam side down, in a greased 13x9 baking dish

For sauce, in a medium bowl combine the rest of the green chilies, soup, sour cream, and 1 cup milk.  Pour evenly over the tortillas.  Cover with foil and bake in a 350 degree oven for about 35 minutes or until heated through.  Remove foil and sprinkle cheese and 2 tablespoons of slivered almonds onto tortillas.  Bake for 5 more minutes.  

Enjoy!  

You can make this ahead of time and then just throw it in the oven when ready!

Three Months!!!

Sweet Blakely Ann,

You are three months old!!  I can hardly believe that...it sounds so grown up.  Just this morning I was looking back at all of the photos of your birthday and oh my how you have changed!  You are a baby now and not just a newborn.  I know I say this all the time but you have brought so much joy into our lives.  Daddy and I love you more than we even thought possible.  You get more fun and sweet as the days go by.  I always think I couldn't possibly love you more and then you give me that smile and I do!  You have started smiling at me in the mornings when I come in to feed you.  You fuss until it wakes me up and then when you see me you are all smiles.  I make you happy sweet girl....and that makes mommy over the moon happy.  I love you so very much...Happy three month birthday!
Love, Mommy

Firsts this month:

Blakely laughed out loud for the first time on 12-30-11.  I actually got it on video...I couldn't believe it!  She had been sort of giggling for a few weeks so I knew that she was close and that is why I had the video on.  She would smile real big and then say heeeee after the big smile.  But this was a total LOL.  I'm pretty sure it is the cutest thing that I have ever seen.  

I hope the video works and if it does ignore my crazy mommy voice.  Although you can hear my surprise when she laughs!

Blakely had her first Christmas!

Lonnie celebrated his first birthday as a daddy!

she's singing happy birthday.....yeah, not really ;)

She celebrated her first New Years...and no she wasn't awake at midnight, although Lonnie and I went down and kissed her :)  Lonnie's brother, his wife, and their two kids came to visit us on New Years weekend.  Here are Collier and Syble reading to B...

She slept without being swaddled (or half swaddled as we have always had her arms out) for the first time.  We just started this two days ago and she seems to do fine.  The first night she did wake up at 1230 but I think she was just super hungry.  

She stuck her tongue out in response to my Grand for the first time on 12-26-11.  They did this for a while and it was really cute.  She has done it a few times since then but not very many.  

It was her first time cheering the Razorbacks to a bowl win :)

Blakely took her first bath in her bath tub.  She had just been taking a bath with one of us but that was getting old as sometimes neither one of us would want to take one.  She seems to like her tub and only screamed the one time daddy dropped her little head on the hard plastic :)

after bath cuteness....

She fit into her first 3-6 month pajamas.  I nearly cried.  The only reason I tried them was that they were so stinkin' cute!  

see...so cute right??

Feeding: We are still exclusively breastfeeding which, apparently, means I have bronze boobies!  I didn't know this until I read Shannon's post.  Honestly, she sums up exactly how I felt/feel about breastfeeding.  I worried about that so much and I am ecstatic that it is working out for us.  We seem to have worked out all the kinks and are settling into a nice routine.  I love it....

I am still pumping even though Blakely won't take a bottle.  I feel like she will get it eventually?  And, if not, (Lord help me) then I will just use the milk I have stored to mix with her baby food.  I am storing it in a deep freezer so, from what I've read, it is good for six months.  I pump when I go to bed at night and then after her first feeding in the morning.  Sometimes I pump a few other times during the day and then some days (when I am lazy) I only pump those two times.

My supply is doing really well right now.  It did drop a bit over the holidays when I was stressed out.  This also coincided with B sleeping 8-9 hours a night.  I just pumped after she ate every time for like 4 days and it came back up.  And, oh the engorgement when she started sleeping longer at night.  WOW!  It is better but I am still pretty engorged in the mornings....

As far as the bottle goes I will do an entire post on that once the whole 10 days of OPERATION: Baby must take bottle is over :)

and this is what she looks like after crying herself to sleep after a bottle attempt...

Sleeping: Blakely has been an awesome sleeper from the very beginning.  I know some people hate me for this and that it totally ok ;)  She sleeps average 8-9 hours at night.  She wakes up to eat after this and then goes right back to sleep for another 3-4 hours.  It is awesome and I feel like a completely new woman.

Her naps during the day are getting better.  She will take a decent nap (45 min-1 hour) in the morning anywhere I put her.  Her non-existent afternoon nap has always been the problem.  I started putting her in her swing for this one about a week ago and I think she has decided to like it.  Granted, I have to turn the vibrate on, swing it like crazy, and blast the music.  She will sleep for an hour.  Then in the early evening she will take a little 20 minute cat nap.  She is very sleepy when it is time to put her down for the night.  I have put her in her crib for naps a few times and she does pretty good...never more than 45 minutes though.  We are making progress!!  The first time she slept in the swing for an hour I didn't even know what to do with myself!

this is still her favorite place to nap...

Diapers:  She is still in Pampers Swaddlers size 1-2 diapers.  I am thinking of buying a few cloth diapers to try.  I told myself that I was going to attempt to start cloth when she was 3 months old....but I'm just not sure it is for me.  We will see....

Clothing:  All 0-3 months clothes fit her now.  Like I said above I did put a 3-6 month pajama on her the other day and it fit.  I have since tried just a couple of 3-6 month things that work.  Most of the stuff that size is still way too big for her.

Weight: she weighs 12 pounds 12 ounces on our home scale

Height:  23 inches

Hair Color: Her hair is brown and she hasn't lost any of it from birth.  It is getting much longer and she has a couple of strands that hang way down over her ears!  It does seem to be getting lighter than it was.  I had a dream that Lonnie cut her hair and it was all uneven across her forehead.  I was sooooo mad!!  I asked him if he saved the hair and he said no...I flipped.  When I told him about this dream he told me I was crazy.  He might be right ;)

Eye Color:  Her eyes were a very dark blue to start with and they are getting lighter and lighter blue.

A few other things I want to remember:
Blakely has been so so smiley this month.  She just smiles all the time and we love it!  She will smile at anyone but she smiles the most at Lonnie...she just loves him!  She still loves listening to him sing or even just listening to him talk.  She gets so happy when he gets home from work.  

She is getting such a personality now.  She is a little stubborn and wants what she wants.  We can be holding her and when she is tired of that she fusses and wants to be put on the play mat...then she is happy.  Sometimes it takes us a little bit to figure out what she wants and she will get real fussy.  But eventually we figure it out and she goes back to totally happy.  I think her stubborness is the reason we are having such bottle issues.  

She has also started "talking" so much more.  She and I have had a few conversations that go a little something like this.
B: goo
mommy: agoo
B: ahhhh
mommy: ahhh goooooo
you get the idea :)

She is getting so much better at tummy time.  She still doesn't like it but she doesn't instantly scream when I put her on her tummy either.  The main problem I am having with it is that she spits up when we do it.  I don't do it after she eats or anything but, since she hasn't figured out how to prop herself up with her arms, all the pressure is on her tummy.  Literally sometimes only her tummy is touching the ground...no legs or arms...it's actually pretty cute!

this light up toy helps a LOT

she doesn't hold herself up like this for very long...

please, woman!  No more tummy time!

She for sure found her hands this month and she loves to suck on them.  She balls them into a fist and slowly raises her hand to her mouth.  Sometimes she misses her mouth and hits her forehead but then slowly slides it down to her mouth.  She tries to get the whole fist in there to the point where she gags.  It must not bother her because she keeps on doing it all day long!  She seems to favor her left hand...not sure if that means anything but I wanted to note it here.  

She has started looking at her toys more this month as well.  She got lots of new things for Christmas and really enjoys looking at them while mommy dangles them in front of her.  She still wants to look to the left more than the right so we have been working on that.  She is able to look to the right and does it a lot...she just prefers to turn left!

We call her our little heater.  She is always so warm!  I have our temperature upstairs set on 72 or 73 and I could just leave her in her diaper and she would not get cold.  When she goes to sleep I have been having it set on 73 (cold for me) and that was perfect for her. I have now  turned it up to 75 since taking off the swaddle.   It is actually about 3-4 degrees colder than this in her room because we keep her door closed.  When I get up to feed her in the morning she warms me up because I am cold.  I have taken her temperature a bunch of times because I am a worrier like that!  

A funny story.  I was getting her bath ready one night while Lonnie was getting her undressed in the bedroom.  All of the sudden I hear her start SCREAMING and I am wondering what the heck??  A few minutes later she stops.  Lonnie walks into the bathroom with her and they both look a little bewildered.  He is holding up the shirt he just took off of her and said "you should have told me there were snaps on the back!".  He pulled the thing over her head without unsnapping it!  Poor thing!  I honestly don't know how he did it....it was so tight!  He hates changing her clothes.....

I have started sleeping with her little lovey.  I read that if you sleep with it for a few nights and then give it to them when they are in their car seat they won't hate it so much.  I guess because they can smell you and it comforts them?  She doesn't mind the car seat but only if the car is moving..HA!

Daily Routine:  I stick to this routine pretty good.  The times may vary but are pretty close to the same every day...within 45 min to an hour.

9-930 am:  wake up for the day.  Change diaper and put on new clothes (some days we stay in our jammies).  First feeding.  
930-1030am:  she plays in the bouncer in the kitchen and watches mommy wash all the pump parts and bottles from the night before.  For some reason she loves this.  
1045am to 12-1230pm: morning nap.  She usually sleeps 45 minutes to an hour and a half....  If I have errands to run this is when I do them.  She will sleep the whole time if we leave the house.  
12-1230pm: diaper change and feeding.
1230-200 pm: play time on the play mat or just talking to mommy
2-3 pm: hopefully a nap :)
3 pm: diaper change and feeding
330-500: play time on the mat or we take a walk outside in the stroller
5 pm: diaper change and feeding
530-7 pm: daddy gets home and sings and plays with B...sometimes a small nap in here
7 pm: diaper change and feeding
730-9 pm: play with mommy and daddy or get a bath.  Usually she is ready to go to sleep about 830 and we have to keep her awake for a little while longer.  I do this because the difference in her waking up at 430 rather than 530 is HUGE difference to mommy :)
9-930 pm: diaper change and last feeding for the night
5-6 am: wake up for a diaper change and feeding but go right back to sleep
9-930 am: start all over!

Mommy:  I am doing pretty well.  I have been totally sick (sore throat, cough, headache) the past few days and that is pretty horrible.  It is hard to take care of her when I feel like crap...thank goodness Lonnie has been off a few days this week.  I also am scared to death for her to get sick so I have been staying away from her which kills me.  I haven't kissed her in 3 days!

I have gotten her on a pretty good schedule and I am quite proud of myself for that.  I'm not sure how it happened.  One night I just said Ok, I am putting her to bed for the night at 900.  I didn't care what time she woke up to eat.  I just needed some time to myself and some time for my husband.  She did great with this!  The problem is that I have become a frickin' drill sergeant when it comes to the schedule.  I should probably be a little more laid back but it is working so well that I don't want to change a thing.  

Just a little note that is probably TMI but I haven't really talked about it in a while.  My lady parts feel back to normal now...thank goodness!  I was really getting worried that things would never be the same down there but all is well now :)  I started feeling back to normal around 8-9 weeks postpartum.  

Daddy:  Lonnie is doing great and he is just the best father.  He had a bad cold (that's where I got it) a week ago and it was hard for him not to kiss Blakely too.  He is slowly getting better now and back to singing or reading to her every day.

I just have to share this.  I was looking through his phone the other day and I came across a text where someone asked him about fatherhood.  This was his response exactly.  

Hard to explain.

It's more than any other love I've felt.

It's cliched.  I know, but it's like having your heart walking around outside of your body.

Love at first sight.

I wish it wasn't true but I am certain that she's going to break my heart one day.

But I'm also certain that she's worth it......

Is that not the sweetest, most honest thing you've ever heard?  I cried when I read that and I cried when I just typed that.  Blakely and I are so lucky to have him!