Stretch Marks

Well they are here.....


Like seriously....


I am actually pretty upset by this.  It is my own damn fault.  Why the heck did I think I would go through pregnancy and not get them?!?  I mean I already have them on my hips and thighs from when I was a teenager.  What in the hell made me think that my tummy would be spared?  I have put cream on my belly religiously every single day knowing that it wouldn't prevent them but, hey, it can't hurt?  I am an idiot.


I guess I thought since I had made it to 37 weeks without them that I wasn't going to get them.  Well that is not the case.  Literally they sprang up overnight.  In the past 72 hours I have gone from ZERO stretch marks to like 10.  WTF?!?!  


I wish I wasn't upset.  It is a weird feeling.  I know they are so worth it and I would take them a million times over just to get my baby girl here safely.  But it still does make me a little sad.  I think if there was just a couple I wouldn't be so freaked out...but I think there is a new one every time I look down!  


Breathe, Kelly....


I will just consider them my battle scars.  Not from pregnancy (because pregnancy has NOT been a battle at all) but from infertility.  I have scars on my heart from IF so why not my tummy?  I remember, not so long ago, desperately wanting to be pregnant.  I would have done pretty much anything to be where I am now.  I am so thankful to have a healthy baby girl growing in there.  I don't even really know how to express how grateful I am.  Who the hell cares about a few marks on my belly?  Every time I look at them from now on I will remember how hard we worked to get to this place and how much heartbreak we had to endure.  Then I will look at my sweet girl and know it was all worth it.  She is worth it....she is worth it a zillion times over :)


Ok I have talked myself down now and I feel better :)  Bring it on stretch marks....bring.it.on.